Common Girl Stuff

Every now and then I'll slowly get into this funk that happens to most of us girls. I'll start to look at myself in the mirror more, spend more time focusing on what can be improved, and then slowly just sink into unhappiness with the way that I look. I start thinking, "I should really start a stricter diet" or "I should do more cardio". It's funny because last year at this time, I was ten pounds heavier than I am now, ate whatever I wanted, and exercised only twice a week and that was only at dance practice. Back then these days were rare. Ever since I started cheer practices this year, these days have become more and more frequent. At the beginning of the season I was the heaviest flyer. I have it in my mind that I was the "fat flyer", although I know that makes no sense because if I was actually fat, Coach wouldn't have made me a flyer. Once you get something like this in your mind though, the devil takes a hold of it and makes it grow. He makes me think that I am huge compared to the other girls on my team. He makes me think that I'm overweight. Logically, I know that this is unreasonable. I eat healthy (with a few too many desserts sometimes) and work out five days a week on top of cheer practices. I wear size small clothing and size 3 jeans at the largest. I'm continually told that I'm "tiny", "little", or my favorite "you're a little person!!" hahah. But somehow he still gets to me. It's getting worse. Today I found myself subconsciously considering crash diets before I caught myself. That's when I knew that the devil had too much of a hold on me. That's why I'm writing this. I need to put it in writing. I need to confess it to other living beings. I don't need someone to sit there and tell me, "Kaitlyn you're not fat! You're being stupid". I just need to get this out, to have a listener. I know that God will get me through this. He wins the battle and I'm on his side. I need to look towards him every time I feel fat. I need to realize that I can't fight the devil on my own. I need to realize that God made me, and that means I'm beautiful. Sometimes it just takes some convincing. 

SB 2K11

such a great week

Life Changing

Everyone read Heaven is For Real. Seriously, read it.

Five

I’m ready for more of this. 

10  9  8  7  6 5 4 3 2 ADVENTURE.

Officially Old

Two of my friends just got engaged.

Patricia

KAITLYN: Yooo
TRICIA: Hookup
TRICIA: F*** auto correct
TRICIA: It knows me too well
TRICIA: It was supposed to say hiiiii


I love this girl.

I read this before I go to sleep.

Psalm 143

A psalm of David.

 ¹ LORD, hear my prayer,
   listen to my cry for mercy;
in your faithfulness and righteousness
   come to my relief. ² Do not bring your servant into judgment,
   for no one living is righteous before you. ³ The enemy pursues me,
   he crushes me to the ground;
he makes me dwell in the darkness
   like those long dead. ⁴ So my spirit grows faint within me;
   my heart within me is dismayed. ⁵ I remember the days of long ago;
   I meditate on all your works
   and consider what your hands have done. ⁶ I spread out my hands to you;
   I thirst for you like a parched land.^[a]

 ⁷ Answer me quickly, LORD;
   my spirit fails.
Do not hide your face from me
   or I will be like those who go down to the pit. ⁸ Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,
   for I have put my trust in you.
Show me the way I should go,
   for to you I entrust my life. ⁹ Rescue me from my enemies, LORD,
   for I hide myself in you. ¹⁰ Teach me to do your will,
   for you are my God;
may your good Spirit
   lead me on level ground.

 ¹¹ For your name’s sake, LORD, preserve my life;
   in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble. ¹² In your unfailing love, silence my enemies;
   destroy all my foes,
   for I am your servant.