Confessions

I have a really hard time saying no to people.

I HATE making other people upset, sad, frustrated. I'll do anything to keep/make other people happy. This gets me into trouble a lot.

I wish I could redo my first two months of college. I've never really had regrets before.

I often think about how I want my kids to be much better people than I am.

I'm terrible at trusting.

People can hurt me a lot easier than they know. I'm actually pretty sensitive.

I'm not good at showing emotions.

I very rarely cry; I normally only cry when I'm frustrated.

I'm very independent. I have a hard time depending on other people, even God.

I get jealous REALLY easily.

I don't feel like I'm worth much in a guy's eyes.

I've recently developed an obsession with my weight. It comes with being a flyer and having one guy lifting you. And the tiny uniforms that fit everyone else except me.

I'm obsessed with chocolate and ice cream. This doesn't help the whole weight thing.

I like pretending that my life is a fairy tale, or a movie. It makes me believe in a happy ending.

Recently I've started thinking of my journey with God as an adventure. It makes everything so much more exciting.

I love working with middle schoolers at my church. Probably because middle school was the worst years of my life and I want to be there for those kids.

I can't wait to go back and work Triple C/Blitz this summer. 

I don't really feel like I fit in with any one crowd of people.

I love going home. I love it at Elon too though.

If I don't get six hours of sleep, stay clear away. I get pretty grumpy. 

I shouldn't have drunken tea before I tried to go to bed, now I'll be up for awhile.

I try to read my Bible every night before bed. Sometimes I forget though. I have yet to find a good devotional book. I've been looking for awhile.

I miss my friends from home, I miss the way things used to be, I miss my home church.

I absolutely love my new church here. I love the people too. I can't wait to get to know them better.

I miss doing art. I haven't had time in awhile.

I really need to go to sleep.

There's someone who I hurt, who also hurt me. But the one thing I want more than anything right now is to talk to this person.  That's probably what this whole thing is really about.